My Apologies

as i sit with this pen and pad i think back to all the good times we had
before the scream i swear i didnt mean to yell
i just got frustrated and mad as hell

we didnt have to argue we could have sat down and worked it out
but your emotion got the best of you and you couldnt work them out
so i was forced to raise my voice try to provoke some type of feeling
but i got what i didnt want and now your leavin

i miss your touch and how you use to make me feel
i need that back in my life i need that raw deal
we have fallen far from grace but how do we get back up
so i suck up my tears and what what i think should be what

i yern for the day our lips will touch and our souls collide
you are my burning star and i your night sky
beauty is your name and you cant not be denied
for if you leave my soul shall die

why have we come to this point
no one can answer my question
since the day you walked in
everyday has been a blessing

i want to build with you
a family a house and a dream
you are my all star player on my one man team
i sit and i think i think and i dream
i wait for the day that you will return to me

i woke up this morning with a heart filled with pain
i sit on the edge of my world with nothing to lose or gain
my body is sick and my heart grows tired
and i know soon my love for you will expire

i cant think to hard or i will hurt myself
afraid of feeling the pain that you felt
my words dont speak for my actions
and my actions wont count

i only wish for your heart your mind body and soul
and in return i will give you the world dipped in gold
my love my woman my friend my ace
nothing in ths world can ever take your place

i could have tried harder
i could have done better
nothing in this world will hurt more than writing this letter
i hope this leave my heart feeling light as a feather

these word i heart felt and true to there meaning
my heart is shaking in the corner broken and feening
feening for your love to be hug and to be kissed
trust me your love has been missed

as i sit here and my tears soak the page
i think about how i hurt you and i become enraged
filled with hate for myself
how could i hurt such a woman

all the love and the good times have been tooken
taken away stored in a little boxed
tossed to the bottom of the sea lose in their own paradox
my soul is empty and i cant feel my heart beat

but as i write more and more my heart becomes weak and i cant hold the pen
i go back to when we first kiss and hold you told me you would always be my friend
our relationship plays thru my mind several times
and one the last one i closed my eyes and i die

the pain was to much to bear my feelings for you are that strong
i didnt mean to hurt you but now i have no way of hurtin any one else i love
i have been put to rest and this letter will never reach you
and if i does i hope you find something in it that will teach you

teach that i never ment for bad things to happen nor did i wish for them
but they happend so fast i wasnt prepared for them
you soul took me places to lands untold and and found sights unseen
now i die in peace know my love was keen