Difficult Men

Atarah i want to dedicate this whole note to you the one who inspired this whole topic...lets get to it shall we?

Okay so its been said through the years that i am a very difficult person to love which i can say is true i mean its been years and years of stress from different Women i mean why should i trust any of them right? I mean they always saye the way a Man treats his mother is necessarily the way he will treat his Wife which for me this was far from true. I hated my mother up until a couple weeks ago and ill be the first one to tell you i would love any females with all my heart simply because i couldn't give that love to my mother so they way he wants to treat his mother is the way he will treat you should be the new saying right?.But back to basics....i have been asked to help explain why Men are difficult now while i cant speak for all Men i can speak for me and when i tell you it takes a Real Women to love me because as a Man there are certain things we feel as though we need. Loyalty.Trust..Respect.Honor and above all......Love UNCONDITIONAL LOVE....We want a Woman that can with stand out bullshit because in the end we know we will give her the world and fight to the death for our lady well shit....i know i will...But since i was a lil kid you know you see the females in school with the nice cloths and the prettiest of friends and as a true hood nigga...i was scared to approach any one of them i mean we could be friend all day sure but when it came down to being with one Man please you got better luck trying to get me to hang my self lol but sometimes a Man get lonely and you want a female but when you feel like you cant live up to her standards without evening talking to her one time a Man will make up in his mind that he is inadequate and will no longer pursue the girl of his dream simply because we as Men we are scared of failure never let any Man tell you different because if he is not afraid to fail i feel like he is okay with failure and as a Man... Man....that is just not acceptable.Sometimes Woman make it impossible for real Man to love them.A Man wants to be there for everything you can possible need we want to feel like we are more or less wanted then needed we want to have our Woman miss us when we are gone or we want our girl to cry on our shoulder instead of running to one of her funky ass lil home girls who is probably single her self and is going to do nothing but give her some fucked up advice that her momma gave her and that same advice very well maybe the reason why you lose you Man...think about it ladies how often do take your friends advice and lose your Man but because its advice form a friend you feel like the consequence was worth it and you are okay with losing him and say thank you friend.....mean while you miss the shit outta him and you don't want to tell her because you know now her advice ain't worth shit.....happens all the time....but back to Men....we struggle with love this we do we are terrified that the way we are longing and giving ourselves is not the right way and far to often do woman just let a Man love them any ol kind of way and settle for false love and fake hope and don't fight for the true love they should be receiving so men began to follow the footstep of all the bastard seeds they see loving wrong because those are the ones with the girls....think about it how often do you see some of the worlds most beautiful Women in a abusive relationship yet she doesn't wanna leave and he doesn't want to change...what can we do to change this start with your self ladies and Men start with yourself you have to understand what your heart needs and wants in a soul mate and you have to be able to see the fake from the real and vica versa.....

let me take a sip of my tea......


Now Men are strange creatures yes we are we do and we think in ways no one can really understand except the man committing the action can know.So with that being said picture this...you have in one hand a man who wants to do right by his woman he loves her dearly and will give his last oz of blood to support her life and in the other hand you have a selfish Woman a evil spirited wants nothing but everything for herself type Woman....what will happen people.....option A he can try to conform to her ways and become submissive allowing her to strip him of his pride and run him barren and strip him of whatever he has left that still was making him Man...now option b he can get the fuck on and try to find love somewhere else but since we are so afraid of being alone we allow situation like that to hold us and bind us and when we do come out the relationships finally we are so broken and torn we are like a caged lion just released into the wild....our heart is not in it...we aren't use to the fierceness of love and how great the feelings is and out soul is so small we cant hold it all so we fold and settle...damn.......what makes Real Man...is it his money? his worth in material things? the way he walks talks? or is it in his actions and the way he shows his self to the world and the way in which he handles situations and how he try's every day to do better for him and the ones he love? this is up to the Man himself and how he wants to precevied in the world....hope i didn't spell that wrong ...any way...it takes alot to be a Man and it is hard for a man to really open up to any woman simple because a Real Woman can destroy our very self esteem if we allow such things and a Real Woman can bind us with all her love and never let us go and as bad as we want that we are scared that we may get one of the many great pretenders out here and fall victim to a mulish love crime.Now its been a long time coming and Men as WHOLE still have a long way to go just as Women do too....but i don't see why if we know what makes us tick lets find someone who can do it in unison right?

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